Tuesday, September 18, 2012

Tough times!

My brother is completely incapacitated right now. His pain is debilitating and there is no position he can find that is without pain. Yesterday, he went for an MRI, but could not lie still for the hour to do it. Our doctor cousin, who set up the MRI for him, had to give him a shot of demerol laced with fenegren for him to be able to even get the MRI. MRI was read today and they saw several issues, but the main one is a bulging disc. They are making arrangements for an injection on Thursday. Not sure how that will help anything other than the pain. He is just miserable. I have had a herniated disc many years ago when they cut a 6 inch opening down the spine. They don't do that anymore, but I'm sure he will be a candidate for whatever they do these days for that issue. He has already had 2 spinal stenosis surgeries, so he thought that would be the problem. It's hard to see him in such pain and Mom just cries when she sees him hurting so badly. He is stubborn and will not let me stay every night with Mom and get her to bed. He just lays back in the recliner and gets up long enough to get her in bed when it is time.

Sunday, September 09, 2012

Unexpected vacay!

I took an overnight trip to Lake Charles Friday. Unfortunately, it was to attend a funeral. My cousin's son took his own life...so so sad and tragic. His parents had NO IDEA! I decided to spend a night at L'Abuerge, which is really an awesome property and casino. I did rest, but I also lost a few bucks in the casino. The funeral was at 2, so I had to leave immediately without even changing into comfy clothes to get home in time to take Mom to the bathroom. We hired someone to take my place on Friday, but we didn't have anyone during that time slot on Saturday. Mom really misses me when I am gone, but I do understand the need for me to get away occasionally. Have a full day tomorrow. but I don't mind since the weather is so nice.

Sunday, September 02, 2012

Still here!

Exhaustion along with depression has settled in on me this week. As a result, I have not been to the fitness center but once this week and slept all day yesterday and today until I had to leave to go to Mom's. I'm starting to dread going there every day. I never know what I am going to find. I am just TIRED.

 I have 12 sand bags in front of my front door due to the weather gurus predicting massive amounts of rain from Hurricane Isaac. We got 1 inch. Now I have to figure out how to remove the sand bags, which are very heavy. My brother put them there for me, but he has forgotten that they need to be removed. I don't want to remind him because he just has so much to do and he doesn't live in my town.

It is getting very difficult to fix something that Mom can eat or will eat. She almost always spits any meat out because she doesn't chew it up good enough to swallow it. It's disgusting and I am tired of trying to find something she will eat. She may eat it one day and the next day NOT! My brother and I have decided that if she gets hungry enough, she will eat whatever I fix for her. She doesn't like Mexican and she doesn't like cheese which pretty much eliminates any little frozen lunches. The caregiver doesn't cook any more. I don't blame her if Mom won't eat it. Mom won't even chew the peeling on the grapes. She spits that out as well.