Saturday, November 26, 2005

Soooo Soooo Tired......




I am just too tired to do anything. Today was a sleep all day kind of day.....dark and rainy...and I was in dire need of that kind of rest. The past few months have drained me emotionally and physically because of my mom's poor health and the amazing amount of miles I have traveled between Orange and Shreveport helping to care for her. She is an amazing woman, but she is tired of not feeling good. At a time like this I cannot help but think of my life without her in it. The inevitability of it always brings tears to my eyes. I have started the first steps in searching for a place to live that is closer to my parents. It is scary to think about having to move to a different city after being in the same place for so long. There are so many things to think about even after finding a new place to live, which I haven't done yet. The main concern is my health insurance through the Texas Retired Teachers. All the doctors listed in the network are Texas doctors, so I have to make baby steps to find out if there are Louisiana doctors in the network since Shreveport is so near Texas. I know those Northeast Texas retired teachers must see doctors in Shreveport since it is the nearest city to many of them. So much to do that I just don't want to do!!